Monday, September 14, 2020

The Dawn of an Egoist Mind

 

In a beautiful tuesday afternoon, in a school lost to the sea of ​​public education, there was an “optimistic and virtuous” boy, who, observing his “peers” for a long time, could not fail to notice the vulgarity in something that made him feel like a native egyptian among the hellenistic greeks - a stranger - somewhat horrified, of the youthfulness to which he was also a part. He wondered if that, those daily routine scenes of society, that putrefying decay that inhabits human society as a whole, is really part of it, of its cosmetic and astute - the naked appearance -; if something was really wrong. In his view, no state would be saved from the future "Judgment Day", not a christian, but a secular one. And it seemed to him that none of the options of “having a victorious life”, one of successes where he would agregate all the good and improbable moments, could come to reality, for the simple fact that all that - for his innocent mind - did not made the simplest sense. In these moments of weakness and almost mental breakdown in search of a “verum” purpose, it was that a shine, an “intellectual Big Bang”, occurred in his mind. From an incessant search for purposes and one of that ancient empathy that everyone says they practice today, it was where he found the purest and most true reason for all his feelings, states of conscience, states of being, opinions, sins and virtues, fetishes, etc ..., this human flourishing, which moved, still moves, and will move everyone and the whole history of each individual being of that small grain of sand that is found in this sea of ​​beaches that is the Universe.  The ego.